Today is my 1st Day of Freshmen Orientati0n Programme (FOP) and it didn't start well f0r me. I rushed 0ut from house s0 dat I w0n't miss 161. Waited at the bus st0p and 161 came..very pack0!! Peak h0urs..ok fine. It was already 7.50am. I called my dad and he asked my br0 to send me to sc0ol. Meanwhile,I waited f0r a cab. Yeah, dat's h0w badly late I was. Cos I have t0 report at 8.30am. Another 161 came and still full. Darn!! Tomoro I'm g0in to take fr0m the int. itself.

I thank God f0r havin my DAD as my father. Has always been my savi0ur. Reached sc0ol ard 8.45am. Gosh! When I entered the class, every0ne was s0lemn. Shutz! But I was n0t the last one to reach.

Urgghh!!! When will I have my laptop? It really gets int0 my thick nerves. Seri0usly. I felt s0o dumb c0s I was the only pers0n w/o a lapt0p. How lame can dat be!

We ended early. Rushed t0 Parkway t0 meet Wan and his br0. Ate @ Banquet bef0re his br0 sent us t0 Piaggio Workshop. Haiz..everythin seemed s0 happy but ended with tears.. We had st0opid misunderstanding. I really br0ke down dis time since d last time when I realised I've bec0me stone-hearted.

I feel very painful inside.. Today is the last day I'm g0in to see him c0s he's b0okin in t0moro. Damn! I hate dis.

I'm g0in to say dis..but pe0ple..pls dun hate me after u read I'm about to write.

I wasn't thinkin clearly. I did stupid stuffs t0 myself bef0re jus t0 prove h0w much I l0ve Wan. And n0w..

In my sis r0om, I opened the wind0w grille. I l0oked outside. It seemed peaceful there. Haiz.. I climbed onto the ledge with shaky hands and legs.. Hot tears c0verin my eyes..I held 0nt0 the grilles s0 tightly..

Darn!! Suddenly I rmbr The Almighty. I d0 not have the c0urage t0 do it.

I'm s0rry.

0h yeah, I'm glad dat u called me after u reached S'pore. It's g0od dat ur back safely and happily! =)

* Maybe it's best to have a black heart c0s it wld be t0o numb to feel hurt *